Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Agony

I'm a very competitive person. Extremely competitive and I'm constantly pushing myself. To the extent that if there is anyone in front of me (for anything) then I'm coming last. And I do not finish last!

I also get slighlty cocky from time to time :)

Like yesterday for example, in my Pump class. I've been on the same weights for awhile, having just come out of the cold from hell. I went for a run yesterday morning and was feeling fantastic and thought I'd up my weights. So I did, I increased every one between 50-100% and had the BEST class I've ever had.

But man, do I feel it today. I'm absolutley terrified to see what I'll be like in the morning - it's going to hurt! I love pain :)

Monday, October 09, 2006

Bathurst

First of all, my thoughts are with the family of Mark Porter, the Team BOC driver who has died as a result of the horrible and unfortunate crash on Friday. May the media grant them the privacy they have requested.

Now, what a race. I never want to see a safety car period again, what on earth was going on!

Am glad Lowndes won. He and Whincup had a fantastic drive and there wasn't a more fitting driver to win this year.

Hard luck to Tasman Racings Richards and Jones who had a fantastic race until Superman took off. Last year they ran second, qualified 4th (from the bottom 50% as well) this year and were having a fantastic run. Got the car back on the track, the power steering died and had a nice little bounce off the wall. Thank god the race didn't finish under yellows!

I haven't found out what happened to Dean Canto and Lee Holdsworth yet. 2 young drivers coming up from the development series over the last 2 years, they're doing really well at GRM. They started around 10th and for most of the race maintained that position but something happened around lap 120 and they garaged the car. Still not sure what happend, GRM haven't updated their site yet (not like they don't have anything better to do!)

Watched the race with The Man, and a couple of his friends. They think it's a crack up that I'm so keen on it, but for gods sake, SHUT UP! Now, I take my V8s seriously, I love everything about it. Don't mess with me while the V8s are on. You know the cliche about asking men things while they're watching the footy and all you'll get will be grunts? That's me. Don't mess with me!

Kinda strange though - this time last year I was in a crappy Aussie bar in Sukhumvit being hit on by a bar girl :)

Monday

I'm getting slightly sick of having big weekends. Can't I go back to being a loser and going out once a month tops? I'm not cut out for going out 3 nights in a row. I like being anti-social.

Having said that, I enjoyed myself. A Repco do on Friday night to say goodbye to one of their old-timers. I don't really enjoy them, but he is such a lovely bloke that I couldn't not say goodbye. Many thanks to my new boob shirt for having one of the 21Cs perving on me for most of the evening. Nice little ego boost after a long, boring week.

Shopping on Saturday. I love shopping, I can spend 1hr in a butchers but barely 10mins in a shoe shop. I just don't have the bloody patience! I'll go through a phase once a month of finding something new to try and I'll have a blast. Most of my experimenting is done on Sunday as I'll always have the place to myself. I'll bring out all the cd's I haven't listened to in ages, a couple of bottles of wine, the weekend papers and off I go. I might try and motivate myself this weekend.

Saturday night I went to a BBQ an old school friend was holding. She lived less than a block from me in high school and with 2 other girls, we walked to school with each other every morning. Except for the mornings when I wanted to walk the shorter route and a huge argument would erupt. Those who know me will know that there is no way I was going to back down from that argument! For the record - I always got to school earlier!

It was good fun to spend time with her and be in that house again. I fell of the face of the earth during 2001 and have only just started seeing people again that I knew from that time. It's very strange to be going back there but I had a good time. I must go round to apologise for turning her bathroom upside down looking for a pair of tweezers to get out a 2mm (at the most!) splinter. I've had my fair share of drunken injuries but this little bastard hurt! A bandaid later it was all forgotten :)

Monday, October 02, 2006

Warning: Ageing Rant

22 today. Back are the "I haven't done anything with my life" feelings. During the week there was a news article about young people who leave school at 16. I panicked, then though "It's ok, I left school at 17" but I didn't. I left school when I was 16. Eeeeek!

But I've been thinking since then that I have really done a lot since then, it hasn't all been wasted. It's only (well, the only reason I can think off) because I haven't started/finished uni yet and that was always a big plan when I was in school.

My proudest achievements so far:
Going overseas by myself - after wanting to travel since I was little, I though I wouldn't be able to do it. But I did and I loved it and cannot wait for the next trip!
Been involved with a DVD for young people about depression that will be used in every high school in Australia.
I have volunteered with several mental health orgs since then and have meet so many incredible people.
Been a mentor to young Tasmanians.
I'm alive :)
I have a stable job with employers who value the contribution I have to make to my company and appreciate my work (more of the time!).
Have experienced a stable, "grown up" relationship and all the crap that goes with it.

So I'll quit complaining now :)